Damn That's Sweet

(9:51:14 AM) Xbel: so i have been crying for the last 20 min at least

(9:51:26 AM) Xbel: my poor internship coach

(9:51:30 AM) Shaun: oh?

(9:51:33 AM) Shaun: oh

(9:51:50 AM) Xbel: we are screwed

(9:51:59 AM) Shaun: whys that?

(9:52:05 AM) Xbel: i think the thing that god was preparing us for got way bigger (9:52:10 AM) Xbel: and i am scared to death

(9:52:25 AM) Shaun: ok

(9:52:31 AM) Xbel: my coach is great and we had a good conversation

(9:52:36 AM) Shaun: thats good

(9:52:47 AM) Xbel: just in conversing some things became clear though

(9:53:38 AM) Xbel: he asked lots of questions that helped clarify things (

9:54:09 AM) Shaun: good

(9:54:50 AM) Xbel: he is certain that the passion god has placed in me is to reach the artsy, spritually sentive in our community... and although CORE was a great idea to do so, I (we) made the idea itself into the passion

(9:55:13 AM) Shaun: hmm

(9:55:54 AM) Xbel: He thinks my project should be to find a way to reach/converse with these people by whatever means God shows us.... whether that is through sierra pres or not.

(9:56:03 AM) Xbel: I think he is right.

(9:56:10 AM) Xbel: and that is what scares me

(9:56:15 AM) Shaun: hehe

(9:56:16 AM) Shaun: nod

(9:57:27 AM) Xbel: you know how we look at other churches (mars hill) or communities (the house thing we have always thought about) and emergent ideas of what church can look like

(9:57:38 AM) Shaun: yeah

(9:57:46 AM) Xbel: and I think wow, I wish someone had the vission to do something like that so i could join tham

(9:57:53 AM) Shaun: nod

(9:58:08 AM) Xbel: what if god is trying to put that mantle on us

(9:58:14 AM) Shaun: nod

(9:58:25 AM) Xbel: what do you mean "nod"

(9:58:30 AM) Shaun: hehe

(9:58:36 AM) Shaun: thats the question i always ask you

(9:58:53 AM) Xbel: explain

(9:59:02 AM) Xbel: do you think that is accurate

(9:59:10 AM) Shaun: yeah

(9:59:16 AM) Xbel: i hate you

(9:59:22 AM) Shaun: i know dear

(10:00:53 AM) Xbel: lol... you know what.... I am already planning

(10:00:58 AM) Xbel: how retarded is that

(10:01:01 AM) Shaun: hehe

(10:01:05 AM) Shaun: figured

(10:01:16 AM) Shaun: and i know dear, you hate me

(10:01:16 AM) Xbel: you know this is going to reak havoc in our lives

(10:01:25 AM) Shaun: oh, that would be new...

(10:03:07 AM) Xbel: i think phase one is finishing up some loose ends (what remains of CORE) Starting some conversations with the browns and some others (just along the lines of are you interested in what would this look like) and joining some groups (like a food coop) that would broaden the amount of friends we have that are not yet christians.

(10:03:17 AM) Xbel: I think this could take a year or two

(10:03:58 AM) Shaun: nod

(10:04:16 AM) Xbel: we may or may not remain at sierra pres.

(10:04:23 AM) Shaun: nod

(10:04:24 AM) Xbel: that is irrelevant i think at the moment

(10:04:46 AM) Shaun: we are members now so we get away with it

(10:05:07 AM) Xbel: are you sure about this.... is this what you think God is inviting us into?

(10:05:17 AM) Shaun: we have to try it

(10:05:25 AM) Xbel: why

(10:06:01 AM) Shaun: thats the way things work

(10:06:09 AM) Xbel: and why am i the one with the direction and you are not

(10:06:24 AM) Shaun: i am the flexable one :P

(10:08:46 AM) Xbel: i need some chocolate chip cookies